Last week I decided that I would set myself the personal challenge of doing three things on my own that I would normally do with friends. This would serve two purposes – 1. Prepare me for doing things on my own in Canada and 2. Help overcome the personal issues I have with worrying what others think too much. I suppose actually the third would be to gain enjoyment from whatever the activity is. So, I completed the first part of the mission – going to the cinema on my own.
I checked the times last night, picked a 5.45pm showing so not too busy. I got myself some sweets to munch on and made the decision that I would get the tickets from an actual person rather than cheating and going to the machine – this way I had to say to a person that I wanted one ticket. Well, guess what? When I asked for one ticket, noone said anything, the lady at the till didnt ask where my friends were or why I was alone. When I went into the screen, the ticket person was normal and nothing scary happened! I walked into an almost empty massive cinema screen and saw about 6 sets of couples dotted around – this gave me a momentary lapse in confidence walking in alone, but I made it to my seat. By this point, I was good, “I can do this”. Off came the shoes, I had noone sat near me so I could put my feet up and snuggle with my Chewits and Refreshers. The film ended and I had noone to consult before deciding whether to go home, get food or get a drink. There was no awkward good bye or any of the kissing worries that come at the end of a date. I came home and continued about my evening.
In summary, going to the cinema alone was not the scary experience I thought it would be. I enjoyed just taking time for myself to see a film I wanted and I cant wait to do it again. Sorry friends, but sometimes, I might just want to go on my own.
I am not completely cured of worrying what others think (if only it were that easy), but I have discovered a new hobby I can do solo if I choose to and know that right now, I am lucky enough to have great friends to go with when I want to.
I suppose I should mention the film – Taken 3. Loved the first two films, loved the third! Lots more action and and car chases (if possible!) than the first two. I think it did get a lot of criticism from the people who apparently know about films – but from the ley person that saw it, I loved it!!